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Mildy pissed after half a bottle of white wine
Lost it this morning, f**king lost it. Nearly in tears at work. Vented on a Buffy board as you can see.
Angry and depressed, mum going to be in hospital for longer than 8 months and her mental condition is slowly detoriating. She's now very fretful that she will be locked up because she thinks she is nuts. She's no idea where she is and thinks her parents are still alive. Yes she can hold perfectly normal conversations but she seems to be getting worse. I dont want her in a nursing home for the rest of her life.
I'm worried about my dad, I hope he can cope with this. I don't usually do personal posts of this nature but I just need to let off steam.
Posts like this in the post usually made me think its a call for attention but I realise now it's not. Be it boards, blogs or emails people need to let their anger out.
In the 70s, there was a technique called 'Primal Scream' where a person would go into an empty room and scream at the top of their voice just to let out their inner anger out. Nowadays in the 21st century, we have a means such as this to let go. Anyway, the good souls at the Buffy board cheered me up and believe me you have no idea what it is like to have people you have never met (and probably never will) praying for me and mum and the rest of my family. I am not a Christian but when I see the postive aspects of faith and belief in situations like this I do wonder.
I miss my girlfriend and soulmate Robyn, she's half way round the world in California. It's not the same going to bed on your own anymore. I hope we're living together by the end of the year.
Angry and depressed, mum going to be in hospital for longer than 8 months and her mental condition is slowly detoriating. She's now very fretful that she will be locked up because she thinks she is nuts. She's no idea where she is and thinks her parents are still alive. Yes she can hold perfectly normal conversations but she seems to be getting worse. I dont want her in a nursing home for the rest of her life.
I'm worried about my dad, I hope he can cope with this. I don't usually do personal posts of this nature but I just need to let off steam.
Posts like this in the post usually made me think its a call for attention but I realise now it's not. Be it boards, blogs or emails people need to let their anger out.
In the 70s, there was a technique called 'Primal Scream' where a person would go into an empty room and scream at the top of their voice just to let out their inner anger out. Nowadays in the 21st century, we have a means such as this to let go. Anyway, the good souls at the Buffy board cheered me up and believe me you have no idea what it is like to have people you have never met (and probably never will) praying for me and mum and the rest of my family. I am not a Christian but when I see the postive aspects of faith and belief in situations like this I do wonder.
I miss my girlfriend and soulmate Robyn, she's half way round the world in California. It's not the same going to bed on your own anymore. I hope we're living together by the end of the year.